oh yeah... i am going to start afresh from today onwards... hopefully... so you won't get to know what happen in the past... i was told that she had left us... was indeed heart broken... imagine it was someone you love so much... putting in so much care and effort to bring it up... i saw how it grow from as small as my fingers to a young and beautiful one... i saw how she move around and enjoy freedom of life... i saw how she show eagerness in rushing for food... i saw how she move around me as she discover the meaning of life... however it all ended... i never get to see her again... all was left was bits of memories... scattered apart... memories that can never be piece back again...i almost drop dead... my leg went wobby... but were all these enough to compensate what i have done... i never bothered about her... not with the cleaning nor with the feeding... and here i was moaning and complaining... i never felt the same way... it pierce directly through my heart... yet leaving the dagger dangling in my soul... no.. please no... if only i were to pay more attention to you... it all ended with a big if... one that can never be replace by anything... never ever...